From diagnosis to learning to live with Fibromyalgia

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Starting Over 1, 2, 3

I think I have lost count the number of times I have restarted my writing. Just when I feel that I can really get down to some serious writing, something happens.

Realising to be a professional writer, the timing is never going to be perfect. I have a chronic illness that will never leave me, there is no cure, although there is more research being performed now than ever before. So who knows what the future may bring.

I have a funny ( to me anyhow) analogy that pops into my head every time I think of my writing projects. Just like the Julia Roberts character in Runaway Bride when her friend says after yet another jilted man is left at the altar. “You just need to get all your ducks in a row”!

It’s not just my health, i.e. Pain, chronic fatigue, trying to pace my life but still enjoy my time with my husband, dogs, friends and family. It’s looking for that perfect time to write, when my brain is in gear, all these stories are buzzing in my head; just waiting for me to find that perfect time and space to write.

There is cleaning that needs to be done, the guilt that I feel from writing when there is a blanket of dust visible. Please don’t sneeze or I will be here all day. The washing, the drying, putting the clothes away, trying on clothes to see what fits and what doesn’t. The shopping by Internet of course as I don’t want to use up my precious energy on walking around a store, that is if the pain and fatigue let me. Highly unlikely these days but sometimes I do try and generally pay for it later.

There are a million and one excuses I can use but who are am fooling only me. Feeling like I am the worlds worst procrastinator. Once read that even JK Rowling plays mine craft while having downtime from writing. We all have distractions, the true professional though treats writing as a job. Not a hobby which mine appears to be and a neglected one at that. So here I am jotting my thoughts down through the iPad and this new app I found today Blogsy! Why am I doing this on Boxing Day 2014? Well my husband found some writing apps and suggested that I look at them, it worked, here I am writing. Have I caught the bug again? Only time will tell.

My desk is nearly clear, an hour or so filing, some letters ( seriously overdue yet another item I am really good at putting off) . So no New Years Resolutions, no more promises to self or others. Just see how it goes, no pressure but gentle encouragement to write more and to keep writing.

This blog has just poured out on to the page with very little effort just the need to block everything else out and write.

There I have done it and guess what it feels good. Not sure if anyone will read it but the first hurdle sailed under my fingers and it feels fantastic.


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